{"id":893,"date":"2023-07-03T11:20:08","date_gmt":"2023-07-03T10:20:08","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sober.ie\/?p=893"},"modified":"2025-07-15T18:16:19","modified_gmt":"2025-07-15T17:16:19","slug":"fast-forward-as-for-today","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sober.ie\/index.php\/2023\/07\/03\/fast-forward-as-for-today\/","title":{"rendered":"Fast Forward \/ As For Today"},"content":{"rendered":"<span class=\"span-reading-time rt-reading-time\" style=\"display: block;\"><span class=\"rt-label rt-prefix\">Reading Time: <\/span> <span class=\"rt-time\"> 2<\/span> <span class=\"rt-label rt-postfix\">minutes<\/span><\/span><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">It\u2019s safe to say it\u2019s been a long time since I enjoyed a drink or drug. I still allow myself a small gamble on a Saturday, I\u2019m by no means perfect. Over the last five years my mental health has deteriorated significantly, I have become Galway\u2019s answer to the boy who cried wolf. I\u2019ve had some suicide attempts over the last ten years, some serious but a lot wouldn\u2019t have been. I\u2019ve self-harmed too. I have a dangerous obsession with suicide and it does be at its worse when I\u2019m drinking. I\u2019m constantly gambling with my life. The truth is I\u2019ve tried living and it\u2019s just not for me. Not living in addiction anyways. I\u2019m willing at present to learn how to live sober. I\u2019m a burden to A&amp;E, MHU and ambulances. They have always been very friendly, approachable and understanding. I hope soon to wake up with a desire to live. To live sober. Head councillor Martin Gavin of Cuan Mhuire Coolarne once told me \u2018if it took you 25 years to walk into the forest it will take you 25 years to walk back out\u2019. That\u2019s where I\u2019m at at present. Gratefully trying to walk out of the forest one day at a time.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">At present I\u2019m 35. My mental &amp; physical health is improving. I\u2019m blessed to have a roof over my head thanks to the hard work of Galway Simon, Cope Galway, Housing First and Respond. I\u2019m sober from drinking &amp; drugs today. I still have a lot of flaws to work on. My behaviour isn&#8217;t that of a housed 35 year old. I was once told that the brain can stop developing the minute you pick up a drink. I believe that has happened to me. There are weeks that I still act like a 15 year old. I\u2019m a long way from considering myself independent. When I drink not only am I the boy who cried wolf but I\u2019m also the village idiot. (The next time I beg for the price of a can of Linden Village throw an apple at me instead) As I have stated before I have a lot of growing up to do but luckily I have made it alive to a place where I can change nobody but myself.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><b>As For Today<\/b><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">To be honest today is my last day of a librium detox, Christmas was too hard for me to cope. I had no coping mechanisms though, no meetings and I wouldn\u2019t reach out for help. I finally reached out to Housing First\u2019s Sharon for help last Tuesday, I\u2019m hoping it will change my life for good. Housing First is an integral part of my life now, I can be a proud man yet I know deep inside I need the help of services such as Galway Simon, Cope Galway and the Acute Adult Mental Health Team. I\u2019m also blessed to have the support of an understanding, empathetic family, someday I hope they reap the rewards of investing their care, love and faith in me.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p><span class=\"span-reading-time rt-reading-time\" style=\"display: block;\"><span class=\"rt-label rt-prefix\">Reading Time: <\/span> <span class=\"rt-time\"> 2<\/span> <span class=\"rt-label rt-postfix\">minutes<\/span><\/span>It\u2019s safe to say it\u2019s been a long time since I enjoyed a drink or drug. I still allow myself a small gamble on a Saturday, I\u2019m by no means perfect. 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