{"id":1145,"date":"2025-07-09T05:48:40","date_gmt":"2025-07-09T04:48:40","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sober.ie\/?p=1145"},"modified":"2025-07-09T05:48:40","modified_gmt":"2025-07-09T04:48:40","slug":"unable-to-cry-flashback","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sober.ie\/index.php\/2025\/07\/09\/unable-to-cry-flashback\/","title":{"rendered":"Unable to cry (Flashback)"},"content":{"rendered":"<span class=\"span-reading-time rt-reading-time\" style=\"display: block;\"><span class=\"rt-label rt-prefix\">Reading Time: <\/span> <span class=\"rt-time\"> &lt; 1<\/span> <span class=\"rt-label rt-postfix\">minute<\/span><\/span><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I wanted to cry today but no tears would come out. I believe it could be a consequence of the medication I\u2019m on. I\u2018m (not) crying out for help I probably won\u2019t receive. It could be a result of being in the homeless system for so long too. 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