{"id":1141,"date":"2025-07-08T17:47:12","date_gmt":"2025-07-08T16:47:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sober.ie\/?p=1141"},"modified":"2025-07-08T17:47:12","modified_gmt":"2025-07-08T16:47:12","slug":"cm-athy-resentments-flashback","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sober.ie\/index.php\/2025\/07\/08\/cm-athy-resentments-flashback\/","title":{"rendered":"CM Athy: Resentments (Flashback)"},"content":{"rendered":"<span class=\"span-reading-time rt-reading-time\" style=\"display: block;\"><span class=\"rt-label rt-prefix\">Reading Time: <\/span> <span class=\"rt-time\"> 2<\/span> <span class=\"rt-label rt-postfix\">minutes<\/span><\/span><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Today was fine, not much to report, I can see my blog taking a nosedive as just fine becomes the new norm. I didn\u2019t pick up a drink or have a gamble today, that\u2019s what counts. Last night I finally identified myself as an addict, not just an alcoholic. One of the group wanted me to go for a pint, how tempting it was. I fantasized and toyed with idea for a while, luckily I was able to \u2018play the tape forward\u2019. I would have ended in a week, maybe even a month-long binge fuelled by shame and guilt. I\u2019m getting very little exercise here, it may be something I need to look at. By December I hope to be mentally and physically fit for work again. In gambling we spoke about our Higher Power. I realised I resented God for some time. I resented him for the faithful and unfaithful departed, I resented him for my car crash of a life and I also resented him for creating me as an alcoholic. As I dug deeper this resent was actually just me not taking responsibility. I am responsible for the actions I take and the way I have chosen to live my life to date. It got me thinking of the grateful alcoholic. I too can be a grateful alcoholic one day. One that enjoys life to the fullest. One who serves others and one with an immortal gratitude.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">In the group we spoke about living a double life. I have put so many masks on through the years I don\u2019t know who I am anymore. We spoke about how distorted our goals and values are in addiction. I was blessed that I with a clear bet free head was able to redefine my values. They include \u2018doing good by others\u2019, \u2018living an independent and honest life\u2019 and \u2018being a disciple to my family and myself\u2019. 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