Faith – CM Athy (Reflection)

Another good quality I have today is faith. Faith that brighter days lie ahead. If I check in and out with myself daily the world can be my oyster. Today I wasn’t rude or didn’t piss anybody off. I learnt more about myself and most importantly my family don’t have to worry about me, they know I’m in a safe place. Who would have thought locking ninety odd addicts in one place could be such a safe environment.

In our morning meeting we were asked if we were ever advised about our addictions in the past. One regret I have is not listening to my boss Clipper when he suggested that drink didn’t suit me. It reminded me of how I always managed to have change for the poker machines at work too. I really did love pubs, I used to go to work hours early just to soak up the atmosphere. I was blind in my addiction back then and hadn’t matured enough to learn how to listen. I could relate also to never experiencing real life. A holiday with sober friends and family would be beyond my wildest dreams right now. As for listening, I believe I’m doing all the suggested things today and I hope tomorrow to do it all over again if I have the grace of God to wake up. I’m really starting to enjoy the exit I have chosen on the roundabout of addiction that has summed up my life.