“Do not stumble over things behind you”

I found this quote in the memorial garden in Cuan Mhuire (CM) Athy and I could resonate a lot with it. In my first treatment in CM Coolarne I had Martin as a support worker. I was in a bad place mentally, Martin suggested ‘It might be time to throw away the stick’. I Wish I had listened to him then, if I did maybe I wouldn’t have needed another six treatments. I never finished that program and have been punishing myself ever since. I have done a lot of things I’m not proud of. I know there is goodness in me, I also know there is a small bit of evil in me too. I’ve been somewhat able to forgive myself for things I did in addiction. It’s the experiences I had growing up since I was a kid that I find hard to forgive and difficult to accept. I’m looking forward to making living amends. I’m looking forward to putting two euros into the AA basket instead of one. I’m looking forward to donating some of my honest living salary to charities close to my heart such as Cuan Mhuire, Cope Galway, Galway Simon and Bushypark residential treatment center. I’m looking forward to being a disciple to my family rather than a hindrance. Finally I’m looking forward to being able to ‘Accept the things I cannot change’ (A quote from AA)